If you didn't go to the doctor, nothing would be wrong with you...

So, I wanted to give a you all a little background on myself in case you did't know how I got into the wellness industry.  We all have our own health issues, but I wanted you to better understand why I do what I do. 

When I was a kid, my mother cooked about 90% of our meals. We spent a lot of time in the kitchen and she was amazing at whipping things up from whatever ingredients she had on hand. I spent most of my time hungry though. Quite funny when you think about how kids these days are able to eat whatever, whenever. I'm the youngest of six (6) kids. We ate when she cooked. We were very active children and I don't remember not being outside running around. I have the scars on my legs to prove it! Breakfast was cereal of some sort which always left me hungry as soon as I got to school. And what child can wait until lunch without getting hungry?! This all led me to eating even more sugar once I got to school. I spent much of my teens and into college craving sugar like it was nothing. I didn't gain weight that easily and I had no idea about what was considered a 'healthy' meal anymore.

Living on my own in college had me eating whatever made me full until the next meal since I hated being hungry so much. Tons of bread and soda and cookies.  Needless to say, I was not well often and I had cold sores all the time from my weakened immune system.

Fast foward to graduating college in December of 2007, I had gotten my first job in the art world (I was an Art History major) and was so excited to move back to Southampton (where my mom was living again).  I had the least amount of stress I think I ever had since I could remember. Then towards the end of January, me eyes started twitching. Everyone, and I mean everyone, said it was just stress...if you clench your jaw often and hard enough you can effect the nerves in the eyes and cause twitching since 50% of your nerves go through your jaw. 

After 5 days, I decided to take myself to the emergency room after work. They had me see a neurologist the next day and I had a MRI a few days later. More and more tests, including a spinal tap, I was then diagnosed with MS. I literally had never heard of it before. I had no idea what that meant. I was beyond devastated. Being 23 with such a drastic and scary disease was traumatizing. 

Luckily I had my siblings, who were endlessly supportive of me and what I was going through. But, no one will ever know how you really feel. Sympathy is sometimes something you don't want to receive from someone. This was a lonely battle and still is to this day. Someone very close to me said "ya know, if you didn't go to the doctor, nothing would be wrong with you." That crushed me. 

I decided to listen to my doctor and take the medication. Which only made me resent having the disease in the first place. I didn't change my eating habits or my lifestyle because I thought 'well if this is just gonna be how it is then who cares'. I was at the point where fear made most of my decisions for me.

A few years passed and what I thought was another attack after falling during a skiing trip was actually just a concussion, but my new neurologist put me on a different drug (mind you, these are all injections you do yourself). They all make you feel like shit since they are chemicals. I totally get why some people need medication, I absolutely support it if it's the only option. I also decided to start studying nutrition at IIN and become a Holistic Health Coach.  Learning how to heal your body through food was something I knew I needed to try. I then saw a Kinesiologist who helped me balance my immune system and get off drugs. I have been off drugs for over four (4) years now! 

Don't get me wrong here, I am scared as shit to not have every possible weapon against this disease. I just know in my gut (where 70% of the immune system lives) that drugs are not for me. I have healed myself and continue to work on managing my health on a daily basis. There is literally not a minute that goes by that I don't think about how something is going to help/heal me. It may seem neurotic but it's not worrying so much as caring about myself.

I feel like in this day and age with all of the knowledge we have, I want to educate people how to take care of themselves from the inside out! To not live in fear! To know that making changes are sometimes the best things that they can do for their health and it's not as scary as you think.

That is where I stand today. I am here to educate you with the intention that you'll care more about your health issues and actually feel better after working with me.

Love yourself <3

xoxo,

Marielle